I regret it????? or no....???

i alrdy bk from my camp yesterday ^^
I am very happy because ball season is over~~ (That I should stop)
 i feel vry regret or no...??  because the day was declared to be disqualified... i can not participate in this contest...
              should i cry.... or no ??? I only knw..... my frens and coach.... they are feel so Disappointed.
am i gonna cry or no??? am i gonna say sry or no??? am i gonna blame myself or no???

I always think that I have always thought that I did not mean...................I DID NOT MEAN THAT...................................................................这是我最后一的八独中